Today at my window did my sketching, had conversations with Jack and various other people hangin' around here. I woke up to a dead ipad so couldn't get on and check email, or USA Today or anything.
So thinkin' about my cousin Delores this morning. She's gone already, passed in her late 40's from the big "C". Our whole family really took her death hard, she left 6 kids I think and a young one in middle school or just entering high school. It's been at least 20 years since she died, and it was a reminder lesson for me about living every moment as it is our last. Delores did that. She loved children, and my cousin Hank with all of her heart and soul and I do believe all she ever wanted was to be a good mother, a spiritual person and to be loved by Hank. So she did that. Her number one intention was for her kids to know they were loved, to give them all the confidence in the world, and to be there for them in whatever way she could; the amazing side of her was, I believe, never losing sight of that intention--no matter what!
I may be one of the few that have these beliefs about Delores. I think this because I saw her from a very different perception. I was a kid myself when she became my cousin's girl, and she was always ready to babysit us and she was a person that didn't just go through the motions as a sitter. We really felt she "saw" us as little girls needing attention and love, she was so kind in a genuine way. Then for her kids, she went without and when it came to her health she left herself last and so she was taken away at such a young age, but not without having a wonderful life. She knew who she was, knew what made her happy and genuinely was that person throughout her quick life.
It's a good memory for me, my cousin Delores. I remember her smile, the love in her eyes for every child and her prideful smile when her children did well. She had a simple life, serving those she loved-- a wonderful example for me.
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