So it's Thursday, nothing on my calendar except Felipe and Natalya. So by the end of today our house should be clean and the yard picked up and de-weeded. Yay!
Checking email this morning and I have 100-something incoming so I want to go through those and read all the art blogs I subscribe to, tend to those matters pending, and write to a person Anje has referred me to who is having an art thingee this summer and wants artists to participate. So, good day for busy work and maybe will do some painting.
I sometimes wonder how I got here, to this place in my life. I recall my past; growing up as a shy, and really introverted girl, marrying young her first boyfriend, then having children because that's the next step, then taking back her independence to reclaim some sense of herself without others directing her life.
Fast forward to 2013 and I have my knight in shining armor, 2 wonderful daughters that I am so proud of, and I am authentically me. Why do I get this life? I think anyone can have it. It's the attitude, the attitude of finding joy in everything one experiences.
Saturday, September 21, 2013
Aha Again
At my window today, I remember yesterday...which began a little less than ideally. I overslept first of all til 8:30 which I never, ever do. I wanted to be at SC Gallery by 10, but thought if I was there by 11 would be okay as that's the opening time. Not true, opening time is 10 on Sundays BUT somebody else had opened so I got on with my day.
That isn't the story here though, the story is the Aha moment I had...me 'n the Universe and our Relationship, that is the story.
So got all my stuff loaded into the car: a painting, paints, easel, canvas drop cloth for floor, lunch, purse, ipad, cellphone, etc. I'm sitting in the car parked in the driveway fooling around with the GPS when Jack arrives home from playing his round of golf. I try to explain what I am doing, but he's under the impression that I am backing out of the driveway and is waving good bye. I realize windows are shut on the car and he can't hear me so I decide to just leave without setting the GPS. It's easier to set the GPS after I'm on my way than to figure out how to open the windows and then explain to my husband. Trust me, this is truth.
After a few miles I pull over and set my GPS so that I can know when I will arrive at the gallery, 11:07a.m. Late! I am very irritated at myself, I'm going to be late. I am hitting every red light, I'm not sure of the route I should take, I'm wanting to call someone at the gallery to let them know I will be late but nobody is there-- it's my day to work the gallery! I'm beginning to freak out, I'm talking to myself out loud and realize every light I hit is red, and that GPS lady--I'm going to kill her!
Whew! I hit the off button on the GPS and Aha, I should have listened when the U didn't want me to use the GPS way back when I was in the driveway at home. At this point I decide so what if I'm 7 minutes late? Maybe I can make up the time if only the stop lights will work with me...and this is my Aha moment once I decide to relax, stop speeding up the mountain and just be in the flow of the Universe. I realize I'm at odds with the world, with the road, with the trees, the birds...I am just fighting myself to be heard in the U and the U is not listening. I quit drinking my cup of coffee, switch to water, put the spa station on the radio and begin the process of calming myself in order to get in tune with the Universe. I am finally enjoying the day in the new car, with lovely music on and appreciating ALL THAT IS when it comes into my mind to call Annie and let her know this Aha. We talk, I get calmer and calmer and finally the Universe is with me again and all the lights are green into Sutter Creek.
I was an hour late, after all the gallery is suppose to open at 10am on Sunday. Laura had opened for me, Thank you U, and she understood. Now to get myself squared away in the future.
That isn't the story here though, the story is the Aha moment I had...me 'n the Universe and our Relationship, that is the story.
So got all my stuff loaded into the car: a painting, paints, easel, canvas drop cloth for floor, lunch, purse, ipad, cellphone, etc. I'm sitting in the car parked in the driveway fooling around with the GPS when Jack arrives home from playing his round of golf. I try to explain what I am doing, but he's under the impression that I am backing out of the driveway and is waving good bye. I realize windows are shut on the car and he can't hear me so I decide to just leave without setting the GPS. It's easier to set the GPS after I'm on my way than to figure out how to open the windows and then explain to my husband. Trust me, this is truth.
After a few miles I pull over and set my GPS so that I can know when I will arrive at the gallery, 11:07a.m. Late! I am very irritated at myself, I'm going to be late. I am hitting every red light, I'm not sure of the route I should take, I'm wanting to call someone at the gallery to let them know I will be late but nobody is there-- it's my day to work the gallery! I'm beginning to freak out, I'm talking to myself out loud and realize every light I hit is red, and that GPS lady--I'm going to kill her!
Whew! I hit the off button on the GPS and Aha, I should have listened when the U didn't want me to use the GPS way back when I was in the driveway at home. At this point I decide so what if I'm 7 minutes late? Maybe I can make up the time if only the stop lights will work with me...and this is my Aha moment once I decide to relax, stop speeding up the mountain and just be in the flow of the Universe. I realize I'm at odds with the world, with the road, with the trees, the birds...I am just fighting myself to be heard in the U and the U is not listening. I quit drinking my cup of coffee, switch to water, put the spa station on the radio and begin the process of calming myself in order to get in tune with the Universe. I am finally enjoying the day in the new car, with lovely music on and appreciating ALL THAT IS when it comes into my mind to call Annie and let her know this Aha. We talk, I get calmer and calmer and finally the Universe is with me again and all the lights are green into Sutter Creek.
I was an hour late, after all the gallery is suppose to open at 10am on Sunday. Laura had opened for me, Thank you U, and she understood. Now to get myself squared away in the future.
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